Crown

Samael

If eyes are the mirror of the soul


You will find in mine the scorn and apathy


You will read my hatred as in a curs'd book


You will see yourself as I see you





It is a mirror somber and opaque


Which protects me, which stifles me


A great ditch around the heart


Which rejects, which estranges me





There is a world in my head dead world where nothing


lives


And it is there I am, too far


Far too far, to be rejoined





A crown of thorns is still a crown





I am a king in a kingdom of suffering


I have taken my time to reach this stage


I have taken pains to torture myself


To descend, to descend


Into pain, I exist


And if my brain is numbed


The thorn in my flesh


Can overcome apathy





There is a glory in humiliation


A throne to be taken, a crown to win





I have no more tears


And my smile has lost its brilliance


I have forgotten who I was


I have killed my emotions


Crushed, empty, weary


Always standing, I am a tree


Awaiting the lightning