Body Dysmorphia.

RAYE

I let my fingers pinch my skin
I′m so hungry, I can't sleep
But I know if I eatThen I′ll be in the bathroom, on my knees

I hate the way my face is square
I hate my arms inside these sleeves
For this hourglass we all desire
I wear three corsets underneath
XL T-shirts, baggy jeans, so I don't have to stress about it
Marijuana every day, so I cannot obsess about it

How can I expect you to romance me, touch my body, baby?
I don't even want to take it off for you, so turn the lights off

And I don′t really like my body
But knowing it′s my only body
I should probably call somebody
I should really show you how I'm feeling inside
Matter fact, I′m glad you called me
I been hiding, I been high and I been sleeping hungry

I hug my knees, I squeeze my waist
There's so much that I want to change
Yes, lately I′ve been thinking
'Bout the ways to rearrange my face

I wanna cut pieces off
Looking at the mirror
Want to take a pair of scissors
Sadly, dear, I wanna cut pieces off
Lately, I′ve been so depressed about it
No one sees what I can see, and I'm so fucking scared about it

How can I expect you to romance me, touch my body, baby?
I don't want to take it off for you until you turn the lights off

And I don′t really like my body
But knowing it′s my only body
I should probably call somebody
I should really show you how I'm feeling inside
Matter fact, I′m glad you called me
I been hiding, I been high and I been sleeping hungry

I think, when I grow older, I'm going to get a nose job
I have a bump in my nose, and it′s ugly
When I grow up, I want to be skinny, but with an hourglass figure
I hope I'll be pretty when I grow up, or I think I′ll be sad