I done been torn up mentally
Beaten up physically
They think I′m just emotional so clearly no one listeningI ain't seen bars yet still faced imprisonment
Tryna love life but I′m barely even living it
See I don't trust nobody, nobody loves me
Insecure when I see the mirror the truth ugly
Look at all the shit I did, really disgust me
Everybody talk, tryna see if they discuss me
Stuck in one place I ain't move since the rap shit
I can′t even vent right, we just sit in silence then
My girl don′t even trust me, she think I'm on another bitch
But little do the world know I been on some other shit
Dying on the inside
Crying on the outside
Ashes falling outside, when I open mouth wide
I ain′t been myself in a long time
Right hand on all bibles I don't even tell lies
I been dying on the inside
Crying on the outside
Ashes falling outside, when I open mouth wide
I ain′t been myself in a long time
Right hand on all bibles I don't even tell lies
I don′t tell no lies, I don't see no signs
Smelling dead roses prepping for the day he call mine
Tired from the wars I ain't have no one at my side
But still everybody expect me to be on go time
Wake up every morning feeling like I ain′t sleep since
That bitch left me on my own and took a piece with
Now my new shorty ain′t happy, I can't sleep again
One eye open for the day that she leaving
See I been dying on the inside
Crying on the outside
Ashes falling outside, when I open mouth wide
I ain′t been myself in a long time
Right hand on all bibles I don't even tell lies
Long ago me and gang was chilling out in Popeyes
Talking ′bout our dreams back then I was 5'5
Stacking notebooks ′til my funds make me 6'9
Still rocking with my blood, can't a nigga call me 6ix9ine
And I ain′t been myself in a long time
′Cause I been crying on the inside
And I ain't been myself in a long damn time man
See I been dying on the inside
Crying on the outside
Ashes falling outside, when I open mouth wide
I ain′t been myself in a long time
Right hand on all bibles I don't even tell lies
Dying on the inside
Crying on the outside
Ashes falling outside, when I open mouth wide
I ain′t been myself in a long time
Right hand on all bibles I don't even tell lies
I ain′t been myself in a long time
