To the new me pain is a game
The old me could never relate
I use people as gainRecord their dirty laundry
Then I keep track of the stains
Been about a decade since he sane
Have you ever felt pain?
Have you eva had ya heart toyed with Fishermen? (Have you?)
Romeo n Juliet can′t touch what you did to me (Nah!)
That play was magnificent, had me going til the end of it
Take a standing ovation, you got me thinkin this a real friendship
You had me thinkin we was building, but now I want you bobbin, weavin
While I use ya ass as my punching bag (Pop, pop)
Have you eva been the type to give the shirt off ya back?
For mfs who wouldn't reciprocate that!
Why you waste my time like that? (Why?)
Read but never write back, Tears stain my pillow (Unh)
I can feel em thru my night cap, I told myself stop with the multiple texts
If they really care for ya, they′ll find time to be there for ya (Real shit)
When we together you all on Snap and IG
So that means when we apart you straight up sliding me
Bitch I ain't force you to stay, I ain't raped you into friendship
But why you called me brother, who tf feigns kinship?
You told me you′d be here til we 6 feet down
Don′t be tryna come back when Jay gives me the crown
To quote Queen Beyoncé bitches bow down
You made me this way, don't act like you ain′t foul
Don't act like you innocent, bitch you turned me into this!
I now lack affection, I only feel erections
So no strings only and we must use protection
Love don′t live here anymore unless it's music or checks man
So many people got me this way
Year after year, caused me shame n pain
I don′t want the hatred to stay
But for now, it's gonna be this way
Not solely responsible for how I operate
Over the years, my wall had to consolidate
All current bullshit I refuse to tolerate
My heart ain't for love, it′s just there to inoculate
Can the real Tyson please stand up?
If you da real Tyson, put ya hand up
I can′t find you, I exhausted my GPS
Throw me a sign in the sky
Is you chillin wit Black Jesus?
2021 Been a helluva show
The aliens probably like that planet too ghetto
Too be honest I've been feelin imprisoned since 2012
Dats da last year my family life wasn′t hell
Do I even wanna go there?
Fuck it
Black parental figures, I need you to do better (Unhuh)
Even in the summer, my heart need 2 sweaters
Feel like I was better off as a stain above the box spring
How dafuq you in competition with yo offspring? (How?)
I know honor thy mother and honor thy father (Yea, yea)
All that cherry pickin the Bible just makes fodder
If asking mere questions feels like disrespect
I'm damned if I do, damned if I don′t, so why bother?
My own self expression was hindered by false ideals
Toxic masculinity, patriarchy the right kill (Grahhh!)
Too much put on my plate, I was a toddler
Feeling like I shouldn't complain, atleast I know my father
It′s honestly sad that's an Afro American flex
The bar is hell, fuck da prison complex
My heart goes out to all the black mothers hustlin (I see you)
All them nights you tossed in da bed from tear tussling (Let it out)
But back on topic, somebody hit up Iyanla (Unhuh)
I was havin hella night terrors and mad insomnia
My creativity and dreams was put in the hardest chokehold
Felt like I had to shoulder check in my own home
This my story, but I know it's some black kids head noddin (Yea)
I know somedays you wanna blow up on em Bin Laden
I feel ya pain too sis, wassup brother, jus keep hangin′
Stack ya cake up, get ya weight up, one day we gone all make it
So many people got me this way (Unhuh)
Year after year, caused me shame n pain (Unhuh, unhuh, unhuh)
I don′t want the hatred to stay (Nah)
But for now, it's gonna be this way
Not solely responsible for how I operate
Over the years, my wall had to consolidate
All current bullshit I refuse to tolerate
My heart ain′t for love, it's just there to inoculate
Can the real Tyson please stand up? (Oh)
If you da real Tyson, put ya hand up (Oh)
I can′t find you, I exhausted my GPS (Oh)
Throw me a sign in the sky (Oh)
Is you chillin wit Black Jesus?
Oh
Oh
Oh
Ohahohah
