Goddamn
Goddamn goddamn goddamn
I get up more than I fall, Ls are a lesson not a lossI will never ask god for an easy life, I need insight inside so I′ll endure a hard one
I done been through so much trauma and some drama I'm just trying to go
I gotta keep on keeping on
Sometimes I feel like I′m helpless and feel like a burden
I get frustrated and feel selfish because inside I'm hurting
Why can't my smile be real, Gotta hide how I feel
My heart is so sealed, goddamn
Just let me laugh and chill, Really let my mind heal
But I gotta pay bills, goddamn
I can′t see which path is right, Mental health or the grind
How do I survive, goddamn
Tell me should I even try, I′ve heard too many lies
Who can look me in my eyes, goddamn
Working to get rich, but I'll still be broken
I want to live my best life, but it feels like I′m choking
What do I want my life to mean, Should I stay or should I leave
Do I even want to breathe
Why am I here? Just to feel so alone
Why am I poor? Just paying rent and my phone
Why am I stressed and upset? Why can't I rest?
I guess, being depressed is when my mind works best
I can′t escape this anguish, til I put the pen to the pages
I try to unleash my pain, I take the key to cage, it's
Unlocked now and I feel so dangerous, most say I′m outrageous
I'm letting out rage at a pace seeming impatient
It's heinous, spontaneous, the changes, exchanging vows in Vegas
I want a bae to elevate with, a dame who can speak my language
It complicates to communicate, for days the blame is evasive
I range from detached to insane, fate stays placed way too aimless
I′m done with shamelessly chasin′, my mind is alienated
I wouldn't trade it, the main trend is complacent with sameness
Cheating in the game makes me wanna fade ′til I'm GTA wasted (San Andreas
Respawn back at the hospital, but I won′t get back to the basics. Goddamn
Lately I just wanna be alone, I've been stuck in my home, in my zone making songs, Goddamn
Nowadays I feel more prone to the stress that′s grown, but I'm known to be strong, Goddamn
Lately I just wanna be alone, I've been stuck in my home, in my zone making songs, Goddamn
Nowadays I feel more prone to the stress that′s grown, but I′m known to be strong, Goddamn
Yo, what's gotten into me, fuck it I′m my worst enemy (You shouldn't be drinking this Much)
Look at me Dee I hate your energy
This is what you get when you mix depression with Hennessey (Not again)
Don′t fuckin', don′t you fuckin' look at me like that in the mirror (Listen, listen)
If you're listening then holla ya hear it (Oh my god)
Windex couldn′t make this shit clearer
You think being half financed is getting you far (Bro this is not you talking)
Won′t admit you envy Cole and Kendrick Lamar (This is not you talking)
You act like it ain't jealousy but you′re fake
Because you hate they're successful and the fact that you ain′t (What)
Your daughters three and she told you she don't love you nigga (No she does nigga)
Now you feel the tension every time she hug you nigga (Bro you tripping)
Cuz she put her mother′s family above you nigga (Really? Really)
She don't want you nigga, she's like fuck you nigga (No)
Wait, where the fuck is my phone
Shit, I need to make a phone call
Mom, mom
She needs to pick up my phone
Pick up my call, shit
Hello welcome to the mental health hotline
If you′re obsessive compulsive press 1 repeatedly
If you′re codependent ask someone to press 2 for you
If you have multiple personalities press 3 4 5 6
If you're paranoid we know what you are and what you want, stay on the line and we′ll trace your call
If you're delusional press 7 and your call will be transferred to the mothership
If you are schizophrenic listen carefully and the small voice will tell which number to press
If you′re depressed it doesn't matter which number you press, no one will answer you
If you′re dyslexic press 69696969
If you have a nervous disorder please fidget with the hash key until the beep
After the beep please wait for the beep
If you have short term memory loss please try your call again later
And if you have low self esteem hang up all of our operators are too busy to talk to you
