6 in the morning
I′m here writing
Venting to myselfIt excites me
I unlocked a hidden door inside me
And I already made my way inside it
Vision is getting clearer and all
I'm projecting how I really feel
Always said my introspective raps
Was me just being real
I focus more when i′m alone
And the sun is down
When i'm getting personal
Ain't no way I can dumb it down
Cause I been writing stories bout my life
It′s now a habit
I got something i′m pursuing
I don't need any distractions
Had to block you
I can′t let you get any access
I can't let you get in the way
Of who i′m gone have next
Even future me ain't trying to deal
With any bad press
See me out with someone of status
Thinking we had sex
Who i′m fucking ain't your concern
Hope charges get overturned
I'm knowing it′s more to learn
It′s not a wrap yet
Only God is the judge of me
Not judge Mathis
I been staying outta trouble
And not being problematic
I am not the guy you think I am
Come see it for yourself
I been changing up for me
Ain't changing for nobody else
That′s the problem
All these years
I never really loved myself
When I was screaming out in pain
That was me screaming out for help
But they ain't listen
They ignored the cries
Tried to help my mama understand me
She fail every time
Funny how we the same height
And we still don′t see eye to eye
I spaz out
She call 12 on me
It's like all the women in my life
Put a spell on me
And I was born cursed
Wont you come smell this hell on me
I′m drained and i'm tired
It's ironic when the smoke clears
That′s when i′m on fire
I ain't bout to leave at all
I′ll be here for a while
So just relax
Yeah
The shit you did, helped me
So thanks for that
Too far along
There ain't no coming back
All the vices I once had
I′m now done with that
I missed out on opportunities
Let's run it back
I ain′t shit but funny how some girls
Always running back
They just can't get enough
Wishing I was closer to my family
Man that shit is tough
When you all divided
No more holidays
At Mommy Helen's
Shit is quiet
And It was elementary
When everyone was vibing
And I bus riding
Yeah
Make no mistake
I make my best songs
Dealing with a heartbreak
I got the balls to share
What don′t need sharing
But honestly at times
It can all get overbearing
I wonder how you feel
If you ain′t have that miscarriage
Your parents don't even know
You and I could of been parents
For real
They dodged a bullet though
They don′t even fuck with me
So if they was hear this
They'll be glad it happened luckily
I always seem to think about that night
It really stuck with me
It′s been like 10 months
I'm still needing recovery
Did all of that for what?
And still tried to be under me
Grateful for it though
It was humbling
I′m drained and i'm tired
It's ironic when the smoke clears
That′s when i′m on fire
I ain't bout to leave at all
I′ll be here for a while
So just relax
Yeah
The shit you did helped me
So thanks for that
So thankful
Yeah
So thankful for the things you did
Without you I wouldn't be this big
Without you I′d still be sleeping in my whip
I can't leave cause i′m way too lit
I'm turned up with my really rich friends
I came far and I ain't look back since
I was stuck in a depression
I ain′t been returning no calls
Not even txting
I was sleeping on me
Whole time I was really resting
Until I finally woke up and rearranged my perception
And fixing my imperfections
I′m choosy with my selections
The women I encounter are usually 9s or better
Tom Ford fragrances embedded on my sweater
Only spitting facts
This luxury rap
Wouldn't be this way without you so
Thanks for that
Truly
From yours truly
Yeah
