when the hospital was my home (feat. Rxseboy)

Powfu , Rxseboy

Feel the wind blow, I can hear it in my left ear
Sounds like when you whispered to me, but you′re not around here
Life is slow, sleepin' 12 hours a day, aySince I had my surgery, it′s never been the same

I'm sick and it sucks, and my friends barely visit
Every week that goes by, end up feelin' more distant
Cried so many times, tryna chip away my fear
Prayin′ when I′m sad, thinkin' of our younger years

First night that you kissed me, cuddle watchin′ Disney
Now I wait at night for a text that you miss me
Every second is a blessing when you're standing at my side
We didn′t see this coming, it's okay to say goodbye

It′s okay to say goodbye
But I hate saying goodbyes
Would you stay here longer?
Sorry I'm not stronger

Speak to me with honesty, it's harder than we thought it′d be
Tell it to me straight, ayy, I don′t want no probablys
Tell me when you're tired ′cause I'm gettin′ tired too
The rain is feelin' heavy and the sky isn′t so blue

Pills for my breakfast, promisin' it'll heal me
Hangin′ out with doctors and starin′ at the ceiling
My favorite days are Mondays when you come and see me
Wish you would stay longer, but I know it's not easy

Yeah, I was excited for that concert
Tell me all about it, did they sign your new Converse?
I don′t wanna let go when we hug
One thing worse than dying is losing who you love

It's okay to say goodbye
But I hate saying goodbyes
Would you stay here longer?
Sorry I′m not stronger

Noticed all the pain that you had to deal with
Was sick of all the doctors lyin', sayin′ that you'd heal quick
It's been a couple days since you left us in that hearse
Your girl just called me said she′s pregnant and that would′ve been my first

So shocked when she told me
Why didn't she tell you?
She thought you′d leave the world thinkin' your promises have fell through
You always talked about how you were ready for a son
Now you′ll be watchin' over him, free of pain
Hope that one day he′ll look up and feel your love

When I get to heaven, I will wait for you
Sorry for the things that I put you through
You had to watch me flatline, wishin' that we had time