I got the vision to portray and curly hair for days
But the entertainment industry is hard to penetrate
Got some video ideas and some rap drafts tooEven if I was a millionaire I′d find it hard to pull through
I find myself getting inspired out of nowhere, silly me
Filled with creativity with no source of validity
All I want in life is money and fame, but-
Every one of us knows those odds are insane rough
I see people coming up nowadays it ain't fair
When we know every single one of them has no vision to spare
It′s just a bunch of spam spilling all over our timelines
We need some actual fucking talent to be thrown in limelight
I'm not even saying that I'm the one that we needin′ (nah)
But man there′s a lot of wack rappers
That we feedin' for some reason
I′m a visionary spitting words on a time clock
An ideally idealistic man who feels like a mail box
I'm a couple years behind what could have been my stop
If I was born in ′94 I'd be set with my trail hot
Cause I don′t trust nobody, I befriend the fucking crows
Parece tengo mala suerte, let me take you to the gallows
There's a million ways to die man, I'll let you pick one
I′ve fucking had enough I gotta take out someone
Life doesn′t mean shit, this the lottery you've won
I can′t pump the damn brakes bitch I've just begun
I be repping mountains and the set
Running up those fucking checks
Counting stacks while I′m stacking racks
I still struggle with dysmorphia I think I'm fucking fat
(So fucked man...)
But let′s face the facts- hey!
I'm a fucking guru
I made a fucking YouTube
I never wanted to pursue this shit but who knew
That I would do anything that I was asked to in order
To preserve my self esteem and be liked too
Would you say that that's the truth? I be-
September 2018 was a month to remember
I really let my guard down for the first time ever
I sought happiness, I was truly puttin′ in effort
But that attention seeking whore had to change my life forever
"So here′s the tea sis!"
Shut the fuck up bitch
"He laughed at those balloons!"
Yeah, haha, I fucking did
Call me Pennywise, slut, cause I'm feeding on your fear
We′ll see who's fucking laughing by this time next year
Everyone struggles with their own fucked up past
It separates the boys from the men, how does that add?
When we have to bottle up that we snap and feel bad
Imma take this opportunity to switch up my past
I don′t even know what the fuck y'all been on
I try my damn best to be a nice guy and all
And hindsight tells me that′s the route that I've been on
But some of you bitches act like you want me gone
So fuck you
All I wanted was a damn friend or two
If I played my cards right I would end up with a boo
Whip up my own honey like my ass was Winnie the Pooh
But shit, turned out your whole clique wanted me too
Yeah I Juul, and I smoke, and I Criddle myself and choke
Yes I fret, and I bet, that, all of you do it too
This a dream, and an art, that I funnel my vision through
The gallows have been waiting for my verse to leave some clues
I am Ninten, I'm Identified by red
You are Giygus, prone to negotiate your death
I′m so sick and tired of being accused of starting mayhem
I just wanna sit back with my tea and ginseng
I am not Kim but I know I did the impossible
I′m Olympian like I'm coming back a prodigal
You need to Reap your benefits or my ass will swallow ya
Shouts to Nakey Jakey, he′s my idol I strive for
