North Carolina

Melissa Ferrick

i'm a mile and a half off of the tracks


in Raleigh, North Carolina


with my


foot all jammed up from driving


14 hours


and my body can't sit upright


hanging around watching the t.v. on mute


listening to all of my money making peers





yeah and it's


hard not to go to that


place in my head


that'll stop me from ever leaving this room


yeah and it's all so confusing


because i'm all worked up


because all my thoughts are tangled into one


panicked line of white noise





drown out the voices


drown out the noise


drown out the bitterness yeah that I have stored


drown out my wanting


drown out the fear


you know that everything i've worked for


is just going to


disappear





because ever since I left you


i've got no one to call


i've got nothing to do but sit around and think about how I could have not hurt you


I am so sick of feeling so sorry for myself you know I go from I go from insanely happy


to no I don't want to be around anybody else


i'm not sure if you know exactly how you feel about me so


let me tell you how you


feel about me





drown out the voices


drown out the noise


drown out the bitterness yeah that I have stored


drown out my wanting


drown out the fear


you know that everything i've worked for


is just going


disappear





so I pretend i'm connected


I pretend I can feel


I pretend I care about what you think


'cause intensity


it's never really


been a problem for me


so i'm sorry if I scared you


I just want to be loved...





drown out the voices


drown out the noise


drown out the bitterness that I have stored


drown out my wanting


drown out the fear


you know that everything i've worked for


is just going to


drown out the voices


drown out the noise


drown out the bitterness yeah that I have stored


drown out my wanting


drown out the fear


you know that everything i've worked for


is just going to


disappear





i'm a mile and a half off of the tracks


in Raleigh, North Carolina