Standing on the beach,
sand beneath my feet.
Cool air, hint of rain.
A calm before the storm.
Tidal waves are rushing in.
Learn to swim before the flood.
I should have known way before,
that this relationship I had.
Was going nowhere fast.
Was never going to last.
Was everything I needed.
Was not what I wanted for me.
The clouds assemble,
our sky turned to grey.
Then she departed,
and left me far away.
Sitting now, days behind.
Trying to contemplate,
my current state of mind.
I was so lost without her.
Not another soul on earth,
would I ever try to confide.
I thought that this longing,
would linger until I died.
It was then when I was down,
that I had seen your face.
The smile you made for me,
an evanescent glance to chase.
Like light seeping through,
a hazed and shrouded sky.
A ray of sunshine sublime,
and blinded my withered eyes.
For the first time in years,
I was granted hope and serenity.
Mercy, Severity. God please,
allow this angel to notice me.
You must have fallen from heaven.
The seccond I layed sight on you.
For that moment time stood still.
So for once I knew what I wanted.
Soon confusion settled in,
was so unsure of what to do.
For if I let this be known,
sparks a chance of losing you.
This secret kept deep inside.
I made choice to not conceive,
and forever let it hide.
In return you wouldn't leave.
If I never told you,
I couldn't push you away.
This light I now cling to,
would speak to me today.
Concepts like 'what if', and 'why',
start racing through my mind.
How long could I keep this feeling,
all to myself of a hidden kind?
I must not be so selfish,
this time now I will share.
How I feel about you entirely,
and how so very much I care.
What you will choose to do,
with this feeling tha
