And to the pain I felt
Grab that Gucci belt and beat myself
Expense it all just tryna be top shelfThen rather be myself
I hope that niggas understand all the options
Came from pain that I experienced in my body
Ain′t had the heart to stop it
I kept quiet while niggas was steady talking
Feet hurting from the miles I been walking
5 step drop up out that pocket
Niggas really had no other option
Focus only on the shit you spitting
Tune in to yourself until you start to lose your hearing
Harden step back niggas had to create some distance
And It hurt me
Giving love to ones that ain't deserve me
The ones that would rather just desert me than dessert me
And I did myself worsely
And I did myself worse
But I gotta get back
Gotta get back
Gotta get back to me to me to me to me
But I gotta get back
Gotta get back
Gotta get back to me to me to me to me
Yeah, uh
Look in the mirror and don′t see familiar pictures
Don't smile often when the last I seen the dentist
Call the weed man said I need to replenish
The same old shit got me starting to feel vintage
Lost in my thoughts
A lot of self hate
Self esteem low since a child's plate
Wouldn′t you rather see a smile on a child′s face
Ain't no welcome mat living in a child′s place
Uh
And I wonder if they knew me
If this was really how they do me
Couldn't reach top they ain′t boost me
Stuck in a circle hoolah hoop me
But it hurt me
Feeling like I ain't one deserve things
Pushing people away for they could desert me
And I did myself worsely
And I did myself worsely
But I gotta get back
Gotta get back
Gotta get back to me to me to me to me
But I′m finally getting back
I'm finally getting back
I'm finally getting back to me to me to me to me
I go to church now
Funny how it works out
Got my bread up
Shit a nigga talking Derst now
I keep my head up
Nigga looking from a bird house
Things got better
I don′t see how they get worse now
And I′m holding holding holding holding holding holding on
I finally found me so
I'm holding holding holding holding holding holding on
I can′t let me go
I'm holding holding holding holding holding on
I finally found me so
I′m holding holding holding holding holding on
I can't let me go
And it hurts me
Knowing damn well that I deserve things
To the people that desert me
No they ain′t really deserve me
They ain't really deserve me
Ain't deserve me
They ain′t deserve me no no
But I gotta get back
Gotta get back to me
To me
Uh no
