Sorry I Was Late

Dorling

No-one told me this was the deal


I didn't think that anybody cared


Nobody said that if I wasn't here your heart would break


But you can't make me guilty


No matter how you try


I've felt guilty too many times


There are no more tears to cry


The fire here is smouldering


It's nearly burnt out and cold


Like the inner reaches of my soul


It's tired and it's old


Unaffected by guilt and love and the sounds that make hearts break


I'll say it once, but that is all,


I'm sorry I was late.





The hunger cannot reach me as I pile out of the door


The world is waiting for me, I need to leave


I used to hate leaving you here


My heart tugged at my soul and eyes


But now it's not so bad.





They question my intentions, where did I go?


The old me died with the fire


Several nights ago


Not really an almighty loss, a born loser and a cheat


But people say they miss the spark


Their pleas fall on deaf ears


The spark that made me human


Ran away to better lands, a shame


I should have gone there too.


The guilt that used to kill me,


Left through the open gate


I will not cry, worry or swear,


I' m sorry I was late.





The scene that awaited me


Was hard to bear





My soul, ripped out


Was crying, standing there


'You let me go, I won't come back, I'll drag you to your grave


Your allies are deprived


Of sensitivity and warmth


That you used to save.


You've tarnished all you ever did


There's no point going on.'





The words they stung at first


Because they were true


But it won't make me change my ways


Because I was deaf to all such insults, emotions drag you to hell!





I let it go, it won't come back, it'll drag me to my grave


I'll say it only once again,


I'm sorry I was late.