I knew it was a dream, true
Because when I looked down in there
It′s only a dreamI knew it was a dream
A dream
I knew it true, a dream
Because when I looked down in there
It was was only a dream, I knew
I knew it was new
It was only a dream
I knew it was true
I die
Things come true
I die
They do
I die
They do
Somewhere they do
I have this wonderful dream where I...
I die
Someone else's strife
They do
I die
I lie awake and I wait for this dream
They do
Glad I′m still not
What world?
I create when I dream, in my life when I die
Fix that tie
When I die
Fix that tie
When I die
Fix that tie
When I die
Fix that tie
See man that's why you can't go over there
That′ why nobody has and that′s why nobody ever will
One kid did and no body ever seen him again
That ain't true
Yeah it is
The real world is really unreal and
No none of that′s true
While the wildest
You're just making this up to scare me
Scare me of dreams scare me they can come true
Oh yeah
True
I didn′t see a single solitary one
It's only a dream
A dream
When I dream I′m not lonely
I'm sorry
How long does forgiveness take
I hated him to death
I go to sleep
And I wanted him to die
I just smoke
I hated him so bad
And the wildest of dreams can come true
How long will I pay for my mistakes
I die
I'm going mad
I die
How long does forgiveness take?
Forever
Dirt bikes and pizza
I die
No supervision
I die
Slingshots and lighters
I die
No masters for bastards
I die
Things take on a repeat
I die
Has that ended?
I die
Are you ended?
Take me to the
Crossroads
You crashed your car again, ripped your noze half off your head
Cut spleen, punctured liver and four broken ribs
I′m worried that he might die before I have the chance to forgive him
For the shit that he did and the shit that he didn′t
When I was a young kid in Sunday school learning about forgiveness
I wish I could forgive you now that I've found things to be happy about
But I can′t help but worry in the back of my mind That I'll turn out just like you
Kids with bright future become adults with dark secrets
I used the fear of becoming you to get me though college
So don′t die, far away, don't die yet
I just smoke
Don′t die, don't die yet, far away things take on a repeat
I just, I just smoke
Don't die, don′t die yet
I just smoke Things take on a repeat
Don′t die before I've learned forgiveness
What a thing I create when I dream I′m not lonely
Who's Your Daddy?
Chain up the beast
They gave me a job so he could never get out and so the beast sits there
Dreaming of the time when he can break the chain and get out
I ain′t gonna make it
That's where he′s been for twenty years
I ain't gonna make it out
And that's where he′ll be for the rest of his life
All they do is scream and shout
They gave me a job
Put me up
Put me on one
That′s where he'll be for the rest of her life
You′re the only father that I ever new
Who's your daddy
Who′s your daddy
As you live many years
Things take on a repeat
You're the only father that I ever knew
Ima be a better you
Who′s your daddy
You're not really dead at least not yet
Take Me
Have I become my 90's dad?
Too scared to (Fall in love) start a riot how fucking rad?
The real world is really unreal
How fucking rad
While the wildest of dreams can come a bill true stay
I mean dad
Uhh could we, I mean could you like you said teach me to play catch?
Yeah... sure
But I gotta get this done, okay?
Okay thanks
Have I become my 90′s dad?
Too scared to start a riot?
How fucking rad
The real world is really unreal
Have I become really unreal my 90′s dad?
Too scared to start a riot?
While the real world is
Have I become my 90's dad?
Have I become my 90′s dad?
Mmmm thank you
Have I become my 90's dad?
Mmmmm thank you
Have I become my 90′s dad?
Mmmmm thank you
Have I become my 90's dad?
Mmmmm thank you
Who′s your daddy
How fucking rad
Who's your daddy
How fucking rad
Who's your daddy
How fucking rad
Too scared to fall in love
Who′s your daddy
How fucking rad
Once you get on that bus you ain′t got no mama no more
You got your brothers on the team
And you got your daddy and you know who your daddy is don't you?
Fuck that
If you want to play you answer me who′s your daddy when I ask you
Who is your daddy?
Fuck that
I led her to Christ and she was fuck that gung ho
And I introduced here and she was such a bitch
Fuck that
She's beyond like this, this
You Uh huh Holier than though Christian
And who′s team is this?
Right? judgmental
Is this your team?
To the T and rude as hell
Or is this your daddy's team
Yours
I lost my pride
Alright
I pray to god
Without having to die
Get on the bus
Fix that tie son
Talking suicide
Mmhmm how fucking rad
Talking suicide
Welcome to the 21st century
Where all your kids got adhd that′s why these beats always be changing
Like where the fuck are we going
Where the fuck is my Adderall
Where the fuck is all my weed
Where the fuck did I leave my god damn wings
Your kids are your kids are in there tw... they're adults now
That's why I laugh
It′s adult to adult now, like if I sent that message to any other adult
Get me high
High
High
I won′t let you stay
I won't let you stay
I won′t let you stay
Can you teach me to throw
Ha
It's time
A lot
True
Blacked out the last 7 nights in a row
How pathetic I′ve got a brother to be a role model for
Just because our fathers a mess it doesn't mean we′ve got to follow in his footsteps
(To the t)
So breath it out it's gonna be fine we can be our own role models in time
I'm doing really good
You better ask some body
I′m doing really good
You better ask some body
I′m doing really good
You better ask some body
I'm doing really good
You better ask some body
Have I become my 90′s dad, high as fuck
I just I just smoke smoke a lot
And how do I know it's going to turn out alright?
Every night I go to sleep and I have this dream
I had a dream that you were a worthless heap
You were a sailess ship that crashed into the rocks and got blow to bits a lot
A lot
A lot
A lot a lot a lot
Fuck you tie
Okay baby I
Write
Shut the fuck up
Dull shit it doesn′t do any good what you die from
My boy was just like me
He's a rabbit
Suicidal
Grabbin on to that weight
Lucky paw
Shut the fuck up
Shaking it around
For good luck cause I′ve never had faith enough fuck that.
I've never had faith
Boy was jus like me
Never had faith
Fuck that
Fuck that
Never had faith
Grown up just like me
Fuck that
I'm trying my best
Shut the fuck up
You have a rare gem
Believe in something outside of yourself
I used it for anesthesia
And in the mean time we can just fake it
We′ll leave the existential crisis to someone else
No no no no no
Things take on a repeat
I think I′m going mad
What's up you fuck
You understand?
Fucker
Shame you
I′m having an anxiety attack
It's actually super shitty
Where′s the
I think I'm going mad
I just take the account that you′re still alive as a good sign
You better ask somebody
A 90's dad
I think I'm going mad
I swear last night I was chasing after alice in her wonderland
Wondered in the room and she was with another man shortly
After she said eat this and drink that
Next thing I knew my head was in my lap and on my head was a top hat
While I was sitting at a table with a rabbit and a rat
And the hand I was dealt with was either sanity or wealth
And all this talk of suicide think I was in bad help
Bad jokes bad lines
Constant thought of suicide, lose of pride and lose of life all under my belt
I pray to god she′s alright in and out of my life
Where′s the love?
I lost my pride in my mind
I thought losing that weight would help my dreams fly
But instead the demons creeped inside
Conversations with god asking how to rest in peace without having to die
He told me I'm the balance of the world and there′s a war coming you best pick a side And fight or else my destiny is dead to me and there's no point in wanting a high
Just go to your cubicle get married have kids then die
Well fuck that
Fuck that
Okay
Fuck that
I don′t want to do that
Fuck that
I think I'm going mad
Wait
Alcohol is not a great thing
I noticed how he brought her
Because you die from alcohol doesn′t mean you're any good
You've gotta leave some words behind
Throw your diamonds up again
It′s nice to die from alcoholism it′s very glorious
Wait
But if you
Pffff I know love like a flat tire bus when I've got somewhere to go
Sorry if I can′t get to the phone right now I was probably running home
Don't lose you′re faith in me I'll keep my promises
If I said I′m gonna be there, I'm gonna be there
I said gonna be there
Wait for me
I'm coming home
Keep the candles lit
Don′t you dare eat alone
Today′s our day
We're gonna celebrate
Just because I′m running a little bit late
Doesn't mean I love you less
I′m trying my best, To do what I can for this family
You know my car died, and I'm low on money
This addiction running it′s toll on me
I wish I could quit, but it's not that easy
I've tasted failure, I′ve slept at it′s door
It keeps happening over and over again
I keep burning my lists of excuses, but somehow I keep finding more
I want to change for me, for you, for the kids,
I'll take all the blame, if you just keep my last name
We can make it through this, I promise
I promise I′m gonna change, if you just
Wait
Fuck it up, Weight
Fuck it up
Wait
Fuck it up
Weight
Fuck it up
Wait
Fuck it up
Weight
Fuck it up
Wait
Fuck it up
Wait
Fuck it up
Wait
Fuck it up
Wait
Fuck it up
Wait
Fuck it up
Wait
Fuck it up
No don't go don′t
You've let me down before
You′ve let me down before
I gave you chance after chance to prove yourself
You're leaving me no choice, but to raise these three kids all by myself
I will not wait for you
A gift
To come home
I threw the candles out
Left your food on the stove
I had a dream that
You know When I put this ring on
This wasn't what I signed up for
Do you remember you vows?
You promised so much more
You promised so much more
Wait here
New city can you treat me right
New city can you rough me up
New city can you fuck me up
I should be dead
I should be dead
I should be dead
I should be dead
Dirt bikes and pizza
No supervision
Slingshots and lighters
No masters for bastards
This one is crying I don′t know what to do
This one is yelling I don′t know what to do
This one's running off I don′t know what to do
They don't teach you how to deal with this shit in school
I should be dead, I should be dead
Trying to find the reason
Maybe they′re the reason why I'm here instead
I should be
I should be dead
Dirt bikes and pizza
No supervision
Slingshots and lighters
No masters for bastards
I gave my kids the ebt card
I don′t know what I'm gonna eat this week
At least they can go get themselves some
Rootbeer and jelly beans
They don't seem to think that I love them
Or respect a thing I say
But I′m trying real hard now
How long does forgiveness take
How long will I pay for my mistakes
How long does forgiveness take
How long will I pay for my mistakes
Dirt bikes and pizza
No supervision
Slingshots and lighters
No masters for bastards
How long will I pay for my mistakes
How long will I pay for my mistakes
How long will I pay for my mistakes
How long will I pay for my mistakes
Oh no I′ve got to get out of here
At bars for drinks I'm so alone
Lone
Hey hey hey hey we can make it
Now he′s not even a professional drunk
Hey we can make it
I was unable to get you a present because I am at city team ministries
I just wanted to say that I am very proud of you
I heard that you were accepted to Berkeley
I would like to help you if I can some how?
I miss you and your brothers a lot
I know that I haven't been a perfect dad but I will always love all three of you boys and Bethany too
I can′t change the past but I can change the future with the help of god!
I came to city team ministries as a last chance
My sponsor and mentor, a friend of 35 years
Rich Suchlove from venture church asked me if I wanted a new way of life?
I then said yes and I committed myself to a year at city team
I feed the homeless 50-100 people a day breakfast and dinner.
I attend D.B.S. classes daily bible study classes about 3 hours a day
Go find the light
I also attend S.A.I.T. classes as well as parenting classes
Preaching that old shit
Preaching that old shit
You ain't on my clock
And I just finished 2 years of anger management classes before I came here.
I want to change my life for god and for good
I don′t know what to say except if you or your brothers or friends want to come visit
We have movies in our small chapel here put on by Saratoga presbytyrian church every Friday night at 6:00 Pm
Free movies and popcorn, movies like titan etc
Please come visit
Miss you
These ain't tears that's the Visine dripping
You have to forgive the past so that you can actually function
Who you are is yours and I am mine
But we still fuck sometimes
We meet at bars for drinks
I′m so alone hell I′d give anything
For open ears or honest tongues that can whisper me to sleep
When all the blankets on you side and I'm afraid she′ll leave
Picking blackbe
Nothing like slamming your face through the windshield
I don't think I′m riding my bike again
It's 5 years later still pulling glass out of my head
Well I should be dead
I should be dead
Black out the last 7 night
Need dad is to borrow the car keys
What he really needed now was to be alone
Because every night I go to sleep
Every night I go to sleep and I have this dream
Someday I′m gonna be like you dad
Because every night I go to sleep
I'm gonna be like you
I have this dream where I win
Where I win every battle I fight and I kill every dragon in sight
I got a job, they gave me a job
I got a job, they gave me a job
Any minute now we're going to be dining like kings
I just smoke
I just smoke
I just smoke
Moved away
I just smoke
I just smoke
High as fuck
When are you coming home son I don′t know when
But we′ll get together then, I just smoke dad
You'll know we′ll have a good time then
My parents are getting divorce
Two Christmases
You promised them didn't you
Why′d you go and do that how many times have
I told you
If you're not going to be there
Don′t say you're going to be there
You know how I knew you promised him?
Because he kept looking at me up into the stands and like after about I don't know the 40th time I realized
I′m proud of you
He expected you to be there
I don′t care if you flake out on me
Well I care but you know I chose it, I married you
I'll deal with it
He didn′t choose this
Do you love who you sleep with?
Every night I go to sleep
Spend your whole life, being with them?
Every night I go to sleep
And I have this dream
It's never too late to break up
What a man
Because ever night
That the real
Ditch the old love, Find a new one
Hopefully the kids forgive you
Love the new you
And double Christmas
And I dream
And I dream
I got a job they gave me a job
It′s Christmas
They gave me a job
I just smoke
Merry Christmas dad
Merry Christmas to you bud
You know what?
I think this is the best Christmas I've ever had
Friday night at your fathers house
Eating Take out pizza′s
Watching movie after movie
On timeout with the TV
What's going in the back room?
Why's the door shut and the music turned up?
You know that night you came back?
I wished it
I wished that you would be here for chistmas
Thanks for giving me a second chance to be your dad
Now there′s something I have to tell you
It′s time for me to go
What?
No
Mom picks me up at the grocery store
Cried, don't make me go back there anymore
You bought me candy for the drive home
I didn′t eat it, stared out the window
Put on my headphones to block the world out
Watch the trees pass under grey clouds
Well Was it worth it?
Because Double Christmas
Means Double Halloween
My world's a nightmare
No, sing me the other one
My song
Every time you say good bye
I die a little
Mmhmm take off your boots
Every time
You say goodbye
Oh man if I had one hit song
You will
I′d make you guys really proud of you
We're already really proud of you
I′d get you some diamonds
Hmm, nauh. All I need is you
In my, real world is, only a dream
I love you cat
I love you too
Jour body moved slow and your brain did too
Your mind was wrecked by drugs
I'm glad I don't have to love you
You′re someone else′s burden now and
You're someone else′s strife
I'm glad I can still sleep
Knowing that you′re not in my life
In my life
Have you ever thought about death
No in fact I almost feel good at the approach of death
A pity it's only a dream
In college
So Breathe
This mother fucker my dad, he fucking didn′t know what love was
He learned to walk
You promised him
It ain't like I'm still 5 years old you know
It ain′t like I′m going to be sitting up every night asking my mom
When's daddy coming home
Yeah he wasn′t there to teach me how to shoot my first basket but I learned didn't I?
I got pretty damn good didn′t I?, got through my first day without him, right?
I learned how to drive I learned how to shave
I learned how to fight without him
I had 14 great birthdays without him
He never even sent me a damn card
To hell with him
Breathe It
I didn't need him then
Out
And I don′t need him now
I'm going to get through college without him
I'm gonna get a great job without him
It′s gonna be fine without him
I′m going to have me a whole bunch of kids
Ima be a better father than he ever was and I sure as hell don't need him for that because there ain′t a Damn thing He could ever teach me about how to love my kids
So let me love you
Black out the last 7 nights (From far away)in a row
It's gonna be fine
Let me love you (How come he don′t want me)
From far away
I can be your secret
It's gonna be fine
Let me love you from far away
High just smoke, I just smoke
What a world I create
I just smoke, I just smoke, I just smoke
High as fuck
Dude let′s play some freakin video games
High as fuck
I don't have shit to do
A pity it's only a dream
No roles models
Such a fabulous dream that I
Blacked out the last 7 Nights
Bills to pay
Have I become my 90′s Dad?
Too scared to start a riot?
How fucking rad.
Mmhmm, how fucking rad
How fucking rad
Who′s your daddy?
Who's your daddy?
There′s no need to fear
Who's your daddy?
Underdog is here
Who′s your daddy?
Have I become (Really unreal?) my 90's dad?
Too scared to start a riot how fucking rad
Mmhmm how fucking rad
Mmhmm how fucking rad
And it′s like
I just smoke
High as fuck
Dude let's play
I just smoke
I had a dream
That you were a worthless heap
You were a Sailless ship
That crashed into the rocks and got blown to bits
But still you weren't quite dead
Claimed a halo hanging around your head
The rest of us saw horns instead
You looked terrible
And I smiled a bit
The joy you had inside was gone
And no one gave a shit
Go find the light
Go find the light
Go find the light
Go find the light
Go find the light
And no one gave a shit
Not even the kids
He was already dead you see
Your body moved slow
And you′re brain did too
Mind wrecked by drugs
Go Find The Light
Go To Heaven
There′s No Life
There's No Sunlight
Preaching out old Shit
Preaching out old shit
Go find the light
Preaching out old Shit
Preaching that old shit
(You ain′t on my schedule)
Know you ain't on my clock
I sleep till whenever
Yeah I wake up when I want
When I want When I want
I′m waking up on an airplane
High as fuck
Plane to catch
Roll Roll Roll Roll Roll Roll
Plain Plane, Playing Plane
I haven't done this since I was a kid
Rolling over like you want to replay last night
I get up and pack a bowl
I tell you to go find the light
I haven′t done this since I was a kid
Go find the light
Light, It ain't here
Go find the light
High for a summer
Ain't done shit
Shit shit shit shit
Planes to catch
High for a summer
Ain′t done shit
High For A Summer
Feeling dumb and dumber
No role
Ain′t done shit
These ain't Tears that′s the visine Dripping
Dripping Dumb and Dumber Dripping Dripping
Smoked too much now my eyes are Itching
You Still are a kid
Find the light, You Still you still are a kid
So now I don't talk I just smokes a lot
I don′t have thoughts
I just smoke I just smoke I just smoke
I don't think you should talk
Make a living (Every night) trying to sell my hurt Blacked out the last 7 nights in a row
So take me to the crossroad or take me to church
7 nights, 7
7 nights 7
7 nights 7
7 nights, 7
7 nights, 7
77 nights,
In a row 7 nights
Believe that it′s not your fault
I Just Smoke
This, this, this was the start of his new life
It's the same thing over and over again
And he didn't know how much it hurt to be alone
The same substance, the same action, the same reaction
A child arrived
Next thing I knew, my head was in my lap
Next thing, next thing I knew my head was in my lap
Next thing I knew
Next thing my head was in my lap
Next my head was in my
Was either sanity or wealth
And on my head was a top hat
So you get a little bit tired of life
Me I′m the balance of the world and on my head was a top hat
As death comes you almost say
Okay baby it′s time
I lost my pride in my mind
I thought thought thought thought losing that way would help my dreams fly
I lost my pride in my mind
I lost my... mind
I lost the hand I was I dealt
Was either sanity or wealth
I lost the hand I was dealt
Next thing I knew my head was in my lap
Get married have kids and die
Pick a side and fight
Get married have kids and die
Or else my destiny is dead
Get married have kids and die
And there's no point in wanting a high
Get married have kids and die
Me I′m the balance of the world
So, no I have little fear of death
In fact in almost welcome it
After Alice in the wonderland wondered in the room
And she was with another man and after she said eat this and drink that
So take me to the crossroads
I just smoke
Or take me to church
I don't want to make
Question
What are your thoughts on me visiting you?
You better, you better, you better ask somebody
Where′s the love?
You better ask somebody
So take me to the crossroads or take me to church
Where's the love, you better ask somebody
I don′t want to make a living trying to sell my hurt
Shut the fuck up!
So take me (Downtown) to the crossroads or take me to church
Shut the fuck up
Where's the love
What's up
I don′t want to make a living trying to sell my hurt
What′s up, how are you?
Give up
Better ask somebody
We're meeting at forager
I′m doing really good
I'm doing really good
You better ask somebody
I′m doing really
No role modelz and I'm here
Blacked out the last 7 nights in a row
Accidentally stumbled upon your grave
When i walked through the cemetery yesterday
Get me high
That′s why I want this to be the best Christmas ever
Better Black Sabbath
Black Sabbath in your Black Kia
Balance of the World
Better Ask Somebody
Who's your daddy?
Are you ended?
What a world I create
When I dream I'm not lonely
Things take on a repeat
A Pity it′s only a dream
You keep seeing the same thing over and over again
What a fabulous dream that I feel, that the real world is really unreal
You keep seeing the same thing over and over again
Time to give up you
Time to give up you
Time to get fucked too
Time to give up soon
What′s up you fuck what are you up to?
Fucker
I think I'm having an anxiety attack
It′s actually super shitty
Where's the love
I just take the account that
You better ask somebody
You′re still alive as a good sign
Time to get fucked
Well you're probably right
Has that ended
I think I′m going mad
Where's the love?
Where's the love?
The real world is really unreal
Where′s the love?
Where′s the love?
I lost my mind
You're probably right
I lost my pride
Demons creeped inside
Having conversations with god asking how to rest in piece without having to die
He told me I′m the balance of the world and there's a war coming
I best pick a side and fight
Black Sabbath in your black kia
Where′s the love?
Didn't know you were getting cleaner
Bought me a guitar and a mic
Because I write songs almost every night
That′s how following your dreams go
Grew my own studio
You didn't know
I was gone write a whole album just about you
Where's the love, where′s the love?
I mean I′m sorry it's gonna be rough
You better ask somebody
Where′s the love?
I have a
Awh I knew my luck had to change sometime
And how do I know it's going to turn out alright?
Because every night I go to sleep and I have this dream...
It′s so hard to be yourself
It's so hard to be yourself
When everyday feels like Hell
When everyday feels like Hell
It′s so hard to be yourself
It's so hard to be yourself
When everyday feels like hella
Everyday feels like Hell
Steve miller in your black kia
Didn't know you had a drug dealer
I mention I write songs and play guitar
You asked me for a business card
But that′s how silicon valley goes though
That′s how silicon valley goes though
If I'm gonna die broke
Hanging from a tight rope
I might as well share a couple songs I wrote
Take me to the crossroads or take me to church
I don′t want to make a living trying to sell my merch
How do I know it's all going to turn out alright?
Who′s your daddy?
Because every night I go to sleep and I have this dream
Is that ended?
