Though I′m independent it depends if it's music or social skills
Cuz I don′t hold a deal but I can't hold a conversation
Unless it's with someone that I know for realStaying in but I get FOMO still
Know I need to get control of things
But this really feel like overkill
I don′t even get to pull the strings
In my own mind but the whole time
I don′t think that anybody's noticing
Funny cuz I keep it undercover when I overthink
That′s jokes on me like comedy posters
See I'm going off topic so hold my drink
I hide a lot behind all that I want
Ain′t no closing my eyes it could go in a blink
Life isn't always in in sync
People never really care to wait
That′s okay because I'm here to stay
Rub it your face like Cera Ve
I remember back in 8th grade
Man the concert solo was a scary day
Never really told a soul about the music
But I guess I threw my cares away
Step into light my hand up to the mic
I bet they ready for a serenade
Dropped a verse on 'em
Watching changes on the parents face
When it′s over everybody in the lobby telling me I did good job
But I still had butterflies up in my stomach
I was feeling like a bullfrog
After that rush I was hooked on this
I don′t plan on getting pushed off if
I won't beat around the beat around the bush all day
I′m the one you ain't put on yet
I would argue that it′s fair to say
I been nice for a long time now, if you're tuning in you′re very late
Back when I was rocking white and orange Jordan's
Looking like a piece of carrot cake
Better than the shit I wear today
I don't have an ounce of drip to talk about
I can see why it would piss ′em off
Cuz even though they in Ferragamo
I′m the one who's cut out of a different cloth
Music better if it isn′t long
One size can really fit 'em all
Who is the artist you′re ripping off?
What is the feeling you're giving off?
I tend to pay too much attention to the dimensions of making song
Show the connections you′ve drawn
Make sure the chorus gets stuck in their heads on a loop
I'd rather let it all loose
I got voice for my feelings to live through
So why don't I set it to use?
I got some memories I′m blocking mentally
Also got some that be getting me through
In the worst times
When I look back and remember the moments that helped as I grew
Be my guest to stay with me here
Cuz reflection′s are always one hell of a view
Since we both got nothing better to do, look at the first time I felt
I was ready to dish out a verse for a small crowd
Look at me settling down in my mom's house
Look at my dad throwing pitches to me every day
While he holds a 9-5 job down
Look at the day that I graduated and it′s all smiles
But my parents been separated for a long while
So they only ever met at odd times
Walking in the auditorium, I saw them lock eyes
My dad told my mother "I'd say we did a pretty good job, right?"
She nods twice, I can see it in a soft light
Cuz that small moment was some thawed ice
In a long stretch full of cold shoulders
Now I mull over that one notion
That my life brought ′em both closer
So that pride showing and I thrive on it
Look at me rapping my graduation speech
Made it 'bout writer′s block, and embracing the life you got
Either way we gotta wait and see
But that patience bleeds 'cross the keyboard
That I'm making these on
Look at me falling in love and maintaining the faith
That we′ll make it be long
Look at me throwing a Drake CD on
Look at the friends who were there to lean on
Me and my sisters are playing b-ball
Early autumn while the maple trees all
Different colors on the shady green lawn
Man I swear I couldn′t wait to be on
Now I see the golden days could be gone
Yeah, it's hard question to ask
Could you accept if the highlights of your life were already past
It′s only uphill from here
So there's really no reason for getting attached
It′s all for the best if you count your blessings
Learn your lessons and never look back
Bitch Imma get in my bag
I'm way ahead of my class
I could tell I was a gifted writer so I wasn′t too present in math
I do not get why they're mad
Let all the tension subtract
I see the easy route but I've decided
I′m ditching the map for a treacherous path
Living like Kennedy′s last day
Staying driven 'til I′m done breathing
Amen if you believe it
I don't like to be the one preaching
Cuz godspeed can′t outrun demons
Never feeling like enough either
Even when I'm with my close people
Someone gotta be the odd one out
Guess that′s a problem we'll call even
Summer baby always been a winner
I was born in the wrong season
Trying to bring out my emotions
I'm coping by smoking a joint for the raw feelings
Goosebumps on your arm, really
It ain′t even bout bars now
But they′re over your heads like car ceilings
Hole in one, on the course eating
You'd be lucky if you par three′d it
Who the fuck is giving ya'll freebies?
Kinda looking like it′s all teamwork
No squads mean shit cuz they all switch clubs like golf teachers
In a quick year I can promise to you
When it's over they will not need ya
But it′s easier to fade away
Praying praying for a change of fate
Time degraded at a crazy pace
Now or never yeah it's make or break
Hate to wait for a later date
You can tell my parents Imma make a name
For that little boy they gave a safe space to
Who am I if ain't grateful
Bet they want the Teletubbies days back
When their son (sun) had a baby face
It′ll kill me when I lay the graves
So I know I gotta give the greatest thanks
Life′s a game and it's pay to play but I′ll play it straight
Anything I'm bringing to the table
Only possible because you saved a space
Let me say the grace oh yeah
