It Never Felt Like This Before

AutumnBlaze

You can't hear me speak

'cause I am mute

I hide too many things

I need a place to hope

I need your help to hope again



You see a laughing boy

This is not true - only a mirage

I can't conceal my fear

I have to be sincere



[Chorus:]

There is no way to forget

I broke your heart when I ran away

You didn't know what to do

I was only a stupid boy



When I look back now

I never felt so bad

To know that I've hurt you

Is worse than to break

Is worse than everything



Somehow I think my sparks are cold and useless

I play a role in a sad movie scene - a sad movie scene



I'm so afraid of myself

I'm so afraid of being here

I say sorry but it's not enough

I'm so afraid of losing my thoughts



[Eldron, August 2001]