Beyond My Control

Anja Garbarek

It happens that someone knocks at my door

And the whole house starts to shake

So that it gets really hard to stand up

And even worse to walk

I usually fall down on the floor



And I stay there until that someone decides to leave

And the house calms down

And I look through the curtains

To see if he would regret

To see if he would try again



It happens that someone calls me on the phone

Then my heart gets so scared

That it jumps right up into my throat!

I swallow like crazy

Hoping my heart will glide back down

So I can talk to that someone

Maybe talk to a friend

But it is too late



It is beyond my control

If I don't open up the door

It is beyond my control

If I don't answer your calls

I'm not to blame. It isn't my fault

It was you that made my heart shake

It was you that made my heart jump



And it happens that I take a walk outside

Just to get some nice fresh air

And it happens that I see someone I knew

A long, long time ago



Then I just seem to disappear

Becoming one with a wall

Becoming one with a lamp post

Becoming one with a tree

Becoming one with a street

Becoming one with a house

Becoming one with a door

Becoming one with you all



It is beyond my control

If I don't open up the door

It is beyond my control

If I don't answer your calls

It is beyond my control

If I just seem to disappear

It is beyond my control

If I am suddenly not here



I'm not to blame. It isn't my fault

It was you that made my heart shake

It was you that made my heart jump



It was you that came my way