A lot on my mind I think I need to take a load off
Electric design the way I′m blacking out and go off
The stage is the only place I'm cool to be a show offBut tap dance for nobody I rather break a toe off
This year a lot has happened
Few tears, a lot of laughing
Projects that I′ve been crafting
New goals that I'm attacking
The only signing that I did was when I'm autographing
Post performances with cheers and clapping
Did the second LxVE Fest
Messed around and sold it out
Now they see what I′m about
Left them asking what′s next
Imma stick to my guns
Like cowboys on the run
Get legit with these funds
Keep pushing then we'll see what′s to come
And spread love with every breath in my lungs
Can't you see I′m the one
I done messed around and found the real thing
Bought a real ring
You're the favorite song I ever heard and still sing
Butterflies all in my stomach I know the feeling
Want it all better or worse, sickness and healing
Can′t believe we tied the knot, jumped the broom, had a hop
Made a rapper slow it down, should have signed to Rap-A-Lot
April 15
2017
Every single thing in my whole life changed
No exaggeration best time of my life
Fam and friends all in town, Ant drove through the night
Everybody all together had me nothing but hype
To celebrate that I found my best friend and a wife
Which there is nothing like
Now you're my only type
Knew you were angel way before you strolled in all white
This was only confirmation
You bless my life like a preacher does his congregation
Thank you for your patience
My cousin Lance had his second son
I'm not a family man now but it′s yet to come
You′re to blame for this loving husband I've become
Less is more that′s why I'm glad that I′ve found the one
You're the one
It′s just a regular day
The first day after May
Newly married with a gold ring finger display
No babies on the way
But back at the 9-5 cause it's bringing the pay
Plotting on a way out although the job does have its uses
Save a few more months and then I'm chucking up the deuces
All seemed right even had an exit strategy
But that didn′t end up the plan God had for me
Boss called me casually
To have a meeting after three
Feeling like the bad student meeting with faculty
Said it′s sad to see, but now our budgets cut drastically
Battled with the board and your position was a casualty
Budget's tight so we′re letting you go
We'll give you 4 weeks pay to get your ducks in row
Everything went slow, thinking oh hell no
As I′m packing up my stuff and heading straight to door
What I'm gonna tell my wife, we just started our new life
Feeling like I got stabbed in my stomach with a knife
That′s a tough conversation
Hard to be excellent when you ain't bringing home the bacon
Scrapping for ends meat, I used to have steak in
Now I got 4 jobs hustle on Jamaican
Man ain't it funny how life works sometimes
Now I′m running for my goals trying to dodge land mines
Now I′m earning lesser, but it was for the better
My momma didn't raise her boy to crumble under pressure
She always used to say when it rains it pours
So bundle up and get your ass prepared for the weather
I′m, far from my prime
But an artist so it makes sense I'm putting everything on the line
Silver lining I know things could be a lot worse
Could be curse with my last ride in the black hearse
So I guess I′ll make it work
Work, work work
So I guess I'll make it, make it
So I guess I′ll make it work
2017 was a year of change
I feel 2018 is about to be the same
I got married, sold out my first show
Headlined my first tour
But still got a ways to go
Life is coming fast but the money's coming slow
And labels mainly judge me by how many follow
I built my own team, who all have the same dream
To live a life doing what they love for the cream
And finally getting recognition on the local scene
Success has got me itching for it daily like a phene
Learned more about myself in the last year
Than all the other 27, I could lose it any second
All of my passive aggression, porn addiction adolescence
There's a God but I have questions, Time to get back to my essence
Build it block by block I used to suck at Tetris
I studied the game and analyzed all the metrics
Everything that you have could be gone in a second
You′ve been gifted this moment so please enjoy the present
I wrote a few goals down that I intend to reach
A wise man learns more than he intends to teach
Bout to pack it all up and move to LA
By this time next year I may be speaking to you from a beach
And I′m so grateful for this Georgia peach
You gave a thriving environment and showed me nothing's out of reach
Built relationships I couldn′t put a price on
Now I'm turning a new chapter until my happy ever after
Thinking bout my legacy, but don′t know what's ahead of me
And still got a lot of things weighing on me heavily
I want to leave the idea that you can be whatever
You wish to be and get your shit together
Pray for a nigga while I′m still trying to grow
And if you ever need me just know
There are times when you'll need someone
I will be by your side
There is a light that shines
Special for you, and me
